blessed be your name.

many of you are aware of the things going on in our life right now.  

but in case you have missed it, here is an update:

last week at our ultrasound, our doctor failed to see a dividing membrane between the babies, indicating that they may share one inner sac.  this is very rare and can have many complications so we were referred to a specialist in dallas to get a clear answer.  the good news is that the girls are in two separate sacs, yet do share a placenta (meaning they are identical), which is called monochorionic/diamniotic twins.

the bad news is that the reason we were unable to see the two separate sacs last week was because of the high amount of fluid in the placenta.  today we learned that the fluid/blood is being unequally distributed to the two babies.  our doctor believes that we have what is called twin to twin transfusion syndrome.  this means that one baby will get too much and the other will get too little unless treated.  right now, both babies are strong, are a good size, have all functioning organs and were kicking the entire time today.  however, if things to not normalize, we will have to do something.

we are going back on monday morning, to check to see if the fluids have equalized some.  If they have not, then we will go to houston for a procedure that goes into the placenta to help severe the blood vessels that is taking away from the smaller baby.  this does have a high success rate, especially when caught as early as we have.  

obviously, this is a little overwhelming.  especially when i have pregnancy hormones, which means three times the amount of estrogen in my body.  hello.

on our way to our appointment on monday, one of my favorite songs came on the radio.   it goes something like this:

blessed be the name of the lord, blessed be your name.

blessed be the name of the lord, blessed by your glorious name. 

you give and take away, you give and take away.

my heart will choose to say, lord blessed be your name.  

i love this song, and god speaks to me through it every time i hear it.  while i am overwhelmed at points throughout the day, i also know that god's plan for my life has never been what i thought it would be.  ever.  it has been better.  it has not always been easy, but it has been what i have needed and he has drawn me closer to him.  god's track record is perfect in our lives.  and we are choosing to say blessed be your name, lord, blessed be your name. my heart is choosing to follow you no matter where you take us.  

please pray for our little girls.  our god has the power to heal!