the challenge.

y'all these days i am finding that there are a lot of challenges in my life.  

 they are small challenges but i have found that it is the small ones that creep up and eat away at me more than the big ones.  

anyone else like that?

if there is one major thing happening, then i feel able to deal with it better than the many small things that i am trying to juggle right now.  

we move in two months.  

we have a house to sell.

 a house full of things to pack up.

many, many work things for brenner to do.

lots of friends to try to spend time with. 

lots of family to see including a few trips.  

all this on top of trying to spend quality time with each of my children whose love languages are quality time and physical touch.  read: they want to be with me all the time and physically touching me 95% of that time.  

i am not kidding.  

i would also like to go out a couple times and talk to my husband in quiet place about grown up things.  

all this to say that this is a challenge right now.  

it is a challenge to live in the moment and plan for the future.

it is a challenge for me to fight back anxieties about our house not having sold yet and try to keep the house looking good.

i don't want to count down our last days in texas.  i want to enjoy them.

i have accepted the fact that we will not do and see all the people and things that we want before we leave.  it is just not possible.  

so i am trying to enjoy each day with my kiddies and schedule things with friends as much as i can but allowing myself grace when things or days do not go the way i want.  there are no wasted days when there are little minds and hearts to shape.  

i know that there will be new challenges once we move of a whole different kind.

but right now i feel torn and pulled in many ways here.  

 isn't it amazing that God never stops teaching you things?

never?

he is always molding you into something and calling for change in one area after another.  

he is teaching me huge lessons on patience, trust, faithfulness, goodness, grace, worry and love.  

ya know, just a few little things. :)

this week i am praying for a quiet heart and a quiet mouth so that i can hear God speak to me in these times of challenge.