pregnant with twins: how we found out

so i know that i have been unusually quiet about my thoughts on the twins.  

i guess that you can say that i am still in shock mode.  

but, the idea that i am going to have two babies in six months is slowly beginning to sink in.

so i think that it is about time to tell you the details about how we found out about the babies.

i found out i was pregnant on the 1st of july.  brenner left for duty in boston on the 5th so we did not have time to go to the doctor before he left.  we wanted to go together so we waited and went the day after he got back in august.  

i had obviously been much sicker for the past 7 weeks than i had been with cole but the thought of anything more than one little nugget swimming around NEVER crossed my mind.   when we got to the doctor, we immediately did and ultrasound and this is what we saw:

one healthy baby.  the doctor confirmed my guess that i was 10 weeks along.  (this picture is way better than my first one of cole which was done when i was 6 weeks pregnant.  he looked like a lima bean, this actually looks like a baby)

anyways, we hear the heartbeat and he is taking measurements and cole keeps talking about the turtle on the screen.  

then, the doctor moves the picture over a little bit and says, wait a minute, "what is this?" and stops at this picture.

we all just kind of stop and look.  after a few seconds, brenner says, "is that a mirror image?"

to which the doctor laughs, and says, "no, that's another one." 

my first thought was, "another what???"

brenner and i just sat there.  literally with our mouths open.  we didn't say anything for at least 30 seconds.  the doctor kept measuring and said something like they both look great and are the same size.  cole continued to desperately point to the screen saying "turtle!" "turtle!" 

we were silent.  i start to cry.  mostly out of shock.  and because i am pregnant with double the amount of hormomes of a normal crazy pregnant woman.  

finally brenner says, "are you sure?" and the doctor humored us in our states of shock and said "yes".

  the rest of the appointment is a blur.  we talked about due date, prenatal vitamins, C-sections and identical versus fraternal.  he says it is too early to know, but they took a picture of the line dividing the two sacs so his guess is they are fraternal. 

one of the funniest things was that both the nurse and the doctor made jokes about us having twins before the ultrasound.  seriously.  the doctor later said that he never makes jokes about twins and he doesn't know why he did this time, except maybe i was giving off a twin aura.   

we got in the car and our minds went through a thousand thoughts.  we need a new car because mine is too small.  is this really the time to downsize our house?  i am going to be so fat.  can i nurse two babies at once?  we are going to have three kids in college at the same time.  my parents are moving to texas for at least two months....maybe two years.  we have to buy an extra everything.  what is brenner has air force duty when they are due?  

my mind was going a million miles a hour.  

but i keep coming back to this:

what. a. blessing.

there was a time when we weren't sure i would be able to have kids.  

and now look what God has done.  

what. a. blessing.